I FAILED IN COLLEGE! Felt Like JEE-Advanced

I FAILED IN COLLEGE! Felt Like JEE-Advanced

October 18, 2019 100 By Stanley Isaacs


Today I got to know about my grades for Test 2 and I failed in that as well I thought i must have performed better than before First of all. Let me explain what does it mean to be a failure in US College Student In other words, my fees will change from So my entire salary of around 500 to 600 per month So you might think that I still have a 4.0 GPA I used to get 100s in most of my exams When you are switching from Undergrad to Masters, your GPA resets to 0.0 So lets say I fail in one my class I am talking 2 CS classes right now. So if I get C in Machine Learning and A in IOT then 3.0 GPA but if 3.0 in IOT then 2.5 gpa (Probation) I am graduating pretty soon so So when i exited the classroom with failing grade I was thinking about all of this and i was scared and depressed Negative thoughts kept on coming.Then I went to gym. felt relaxed. then went to gym again Sometimes ups and downs are part of life So to pass for me I need minimum 70 in undergrad to get a C grade. But for Masters I need minimum B grade So you might think if i did well during my Undergrad then why I am not able to manage right now You might think due to YouTube Same way as undergrad (Almost) Because i wasnt doing that much practice with slides I thought i know all the concepts since undergrad I thought exam will be the same was as undergrad easy (like jee mains) I saw the answersheet. felt simple. differentiate and put it equal to zero and you are done. super easy They gave us 2 books and exam can come from either of them In Undergrad also slides were enough and I was more serious during my Undergrad Yes I was careless as I knew a lot of concepts After the exam I was blown away and shocked Next reason: masters is more challenging They provide us with some research papers so that we can go deep into the concepts but i didn’t read them either I thought I knew .. over confidence I always used to raise my hand. ask doubts. But exams were harder than i thought I aske the TA where should I study from. Which are you using for making exams etc? He said we make questions on our own I was super scared during Quiz 2 because of negative thoughts so that’s how i lost points again. Fear of failing again we are creating an Android app using sensors right but i took ML because of peer pressure We are not passionate for the classes we talk of our choice For example I am more serious about my IOT class as I know that i am not that passionate for ML and i will not be using it a lot in future either. Less interest=less hardwork you put in You might think that the class is super boring and difficult that’s not true So he replied in a pretty interesting way, but I didn’t do that much hard work so that’s why I am failing. I don’t have that much interest either You might be thinking that marks way too bad but not that bad. Yet, these are below average So if you didn’t perform well in 1 or 2 quizes out of 5 or 6 so he might drop 1 quiz or curve it higher depending on the class performance as a whole I am still shocked. but i will give my 100% now and make less videos It is more important for me to pass in Machine learning as compared a good grade in Spanish So I think in order to pass this class I need 90+ in the rest of my exams, homeworks and project 90+ with curve or maybe 95+ without curve to pass this class. I have to do better in my project I took way too many risks this semester I think again I took Computer science, CS screwed me back. more than that I took Machine Learning and Machine Learning screwed me back. I should have listened to Carl for giving me warning Next time I will only take the classes I love This class reminds me about JEE advanced exams. paragraph based questions which complicated to even understand More scary making an impact on me So now I have to put the same level of hardwork just like my 11th and 12th. Undergrad wasn’t that hard but MS is really hard requiring to go deep So now I get back to you after result. with your blessings I might pass. Lets see. I will give my 100% But one fear always stays in heart